Daydreamer ♥

IVAN ROSE PADILLA BALANO ♥ Philippines, South East Asia
Seventeen. Dreamer since 1996.
Hopeless romantic. Fairytales. Knights in shining armors.
Food. Pink. Pastel. Photography.
Still hasn't lived life to the fullest yet but is willing to.

Thoughts

Thoughts

(Inspired by the 2007 movie P.S. I Love You – January 18, 2014)

What is the one thing that amazes you? Takes your breath away? Makes you gasp just thinking about it? That one thing that makes your heart flutter, skip a beat? And when you think about it, you get all too excited that you start to jump around or smile like a massive idiot even with people around? Mine? Future – my future.

Future is so uncertain, it’s scary. Although it makes you want to breathe properly, catch your breath, and calm down whenever you think about it and it gets too far, there’s no denying that it gives you this certain joy and energy – this optimism. This thought that whatever crap it is you’re doing, you’re eventually going to lead to something great. It may not be tomorrow already but someday…

When I am ready, I will to go to Ireland. Explore its vast sea of pure beauty. Grab a mug of beer in a town pub, sing Irish songs along with Irish people and have a fun time, meet an amazing guy, kiss him under the stars, fall in love, make wild and crazy choices, maybe buy a Vespa and drive around town, get lost somewhere and learn to find my way back. Just, have fun with my life – not ever regretting all the wrong and right decisions I’ve managed to make through the years but learning from them instead. Be able to realize that every decision is a step closer to my future.

Whatever that is, I’m not sure. No one could probably tell me what it’ll be like and that’s the thing about the future. You can guess all you want but the truth is, you’ll never get it right – not exactly, anyway. There will always be things – little or big – that will surprise you, amaze you, and will get you to say, “Damn, I didn’t see that one coming. But what the hell, I’m glad it did”.

I am so excited for all these things. Alone or not, I will make this happen. But I am young. I’ve got my youth to spare. Yes, future is indeed exciting but living only for it makes you miss out on all the good things life is offering at the moment. What matter now is exactly just that – now. Future awaits but until then, I’m learning to be satisfied with just living in the moment. 

To My Future Jerry

To My Future Jerry

(Inspired by the 2007 movie P.S. I Love You – January 18, 2014)

I just want to express how glad I am. You have no idea how full I am of feelings – positive and negative – right now that it makes me want to just burst. I just watched P.S. I Love You and it made me realize how big of an idiot I am for not watching it sooner. I mean, it’s been in this laptop for a long time and I just watched it now. Idiot, right?

Man, that movie made me cry and laugh at the same time – not that no other movie made me cry and laugh at the same time because there’s been too many – but this time, I cried and laughed for all the right reasons. And this may have just been my favorite movie of all time.

I envy the fact that Holly had a certain Jerry Kennedy in her life because let’s be honest here, that’s like a one-in-a-million chance and I am one of those 999,999 people who are less fortunate to be granted that privilege. I am a girl – a hopeless romantic at that. Yes, I would love to have a fantastic love story. Yes, I would love to be able to be that girl who, even in her husband’s death, still receives handwritten letters, voice recordings and planned trips-to-somewhere-wonderful with her friends. Yes, I’d still want to be that girl that even when he dies, I’d still feel special because just before he passed, he took his time just to plan things for me so that even when he’s gone, I wouldn’t feel left alone as much. And certainly, I would love to have been lost in a foreign country like Ireland and meet an awesome guy and fall in love that easy.

Putting myself in Holly’s shoes, even knowing that Jerry will die eventually would still make me want to have him – experience everything with him. I know losing him one day would hurt so much it might make me insane, but all the memories of him and with him makes it hurt a little less. At least, we had so much fun. I had so many memories with him that I can hold onto. And even in death, he was able to make me treasure everything I have in my life a hundred times more because now that I’ve lost the most important person in my life, I just would want to value all the rest that are still in it alive even more.

To my future Jerry, I am not afraid to have fights with you just like how Jerry and Holly fought in the beginning because I know we’ll both eventually come to. I mean, you marrying me is enough proof that I am bearable in the least, right? That you’d stick up and stand by me even when my idiocy and randomness and weirdness shows up. I want you to know that I love you for that. I won’t promise that we will have an easy marriage because I can feel it in my bones that we won’t. I don’t know if you already know this but I can be really hard-headed and stupid at times. But hey, I promise you this: we will try – that at every argument and misunderstanding, we will always be able to find a common ground. And all we’ll need is just that.

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